So, here I am, sitting in my cushy new job for the government. I really have to be honest, this is so much better than working at the video store. I do have to get up earlier than I would if I was still at the video store, but it's worth it. Better pay, better working conditions, no evening or weekends anymore. I love it! And I hope that since I now have a fine as computer all to myself, which I will be spending the day on at least twice a week, I will finally be able to keep up my end of the bargain and keep the blog more up to date.

My back's been killing me lately, I don't know what it is. My parents finally convinced me to see a doctor about it, but all he did was poke my back, asked me where it hurt and told me to go find a chiropractor. Nice huh? Barely helped, and he acted like I wasted his time. Way to go Canadian health care system.

School is going relatively okay in light of everything that's happened lately. I failed three of my five classes last semester, I did fail philosophy (under questionable circumtances I might add) so I am facing another "mandatory withdrawl" at the end of this semester. Not good. I met with an academic advisor and we formulated a plan. I'm challenging the philosophy mark, I think that I should have gotten at least a pass on my exam.

I can't believe how tired I am, and I don't think I've worked as hard today as I've ever worked in my two previous jobs as a donut shop girl and a video store clerk. A couple of people have mentioned that they may be heading out after work for beer - I hope I'm invited. I don't like to assume things like that - I'm afraid it makes me seem pushy. We shall see.

I think that's all for now, I'll be back here on Wednesday at the latest - so I'll post then. I'm not even sure if anyone besides J.J. even reads this poor lonely blog anymore. Here's hoping...

Signed GF

I finally finished my pre-exam craziness on Monday afternoon. Sent my applications to three teacher's programs across the province, hopefully one will accept me. I'm so frigin tired that I barely feel like writing anything, I really want to change the look of the site - note to self: learn HTML godamit! I don't even have any sort of website program on my computer, so I can't even do that.

I closed tonight at the store, with Greg. I love Greg, that man is so funny and we always get out of the store a mere five minutes after closing. He is quick and efficient - just like me (at work at least) and I loooove working with him. Also worked on a present I'm giving J.J. for Christmas, man he's going to love this one, unfortunately since he reads like blog, I can't disclose any details, but I will as soon as Christmas rolls around.

Signed GF

Happineess Is a Warm Gun

So, I've reopened the blog for business. I really should have done it sooner, but what can I say? My life is craziness and I just didn't have time.

Stress levels are high this time of year, exams and papers and applications all due within three weeks of each other. To top it all off, I've acted in typical GF style this year and anxietied myself into at least one F possibly even two more - this is not good. I was accepted back this fall as a full-time student, although I've really fucked up large all this semester.

I've skipped classes and not handed in assignments - way to go stupid! I just have had a really horrible three months. I've really disliked all my classes, which is probably part of the reason why I wasn't going to them. In a total twist of reality - the one class I did enjoy this year was my philossphy class - I had two really good friends that took it with me and I think that's the only reason why I went so regularly and did well on assignments and tests.

I'm just finishing up my teacher's college applications and J.J. has helped me write papers well beyond the call of boyfriend duty. I just feel so tired, and worst of all, I don't really care about my school. As Bilbo says "I feel like butter scraped across to much bread." I would rather just skip all my exams and fail everything. I've been working on this frigin' B.A. for sux years now, SIX YEARS! I would almost be done my M.A. by now, but alas "everything happens for a reason." At least that's what I used to say, I believed that there was some mystical reason for all the shitty things that would happen in my life. But really, doing a B.A. for six years and being the world's worst horrible student - and inevitably getting rejected from all four colleges I'm applying to - WHAT IS THE REASON FOR ALL OF THIS????

Please, someone, tell me. I really have no idea myself. I want to get on with my life, I want to live in my own place and have a career not a job. I want to teach and have my own class and marry J.J. and get a cat. I want to have my summer's off and read Lord of the Rings every year and then watch the movies back to back to back.

I just want to be done with it. I'm sick of stress and working and effort. I quit, it's over. I just want to pass all my classes, even if it's just barely and get my B.A. and get into college and learn stuff I'm acutally intrested in. I love feminism, and I love women's studies but I hear the same things repeated over and over and over and over in my classes for the past six years. It gets a bit tedious.

I want to teach, and teach I will. I just hope it's sooner than later.

Signed,
Grrl Friday

Failed philosophy - hope I don't get kicked out. J.J. got an awesome new job for the government AND his article published in the newspaper on Wednesday - I hate my job. I am so proud of him, I hate my life.

GF

The Envious Friday Five

1. What drinking water do you prefer -- tap, bottle, purifier, etc.?

I like bottled water, I can taste the chemicals in tap - expecially when it's cold, yuck!

2. What are your favorite flavor of chips?

I really love Sour Cream and Onion, but J.J. should really be the one answering this question - he believes that there exists a Holy Trinity of chips.

3. Of all the things you can cook, what dish do you like the most?

Probably my Penne and Italian Sausage, it is sooooo easy and sooooo good. Email me for the recipe!

4. How do you have your eggs?

Scrambled. I hate the way egg yolks taste.

5. Who was the last person who cooked you a meal? How did it turn out?

J.J. made me breakfast recently, it was awesome. J.J. is the BEST at cooking breakfast!


TGIF
Love, Grrl Friday.

Word to ya Moms, I came to drop bombs...

I rented a Gamecube from work on Sunday and have been holed up in my room practically every moment since, the only reason why I'm writing now is because I had to return it. Ah well, I'm going to save up for one soon, and I don't care what anyone says - Animal Crossing is the freshest, flyest, dopest and fatest game around.

The Friday Five

1. Name one song you hate to admit you like.

Anything on Justin Timberlake's "Justified" cd, I actually asked for it for Christmas this year - although I'd never admit that I did if someone asked me

2. Name two songs that always make you cry.

"Baby, I'm Amazed" by Paul McCartney - J.J. put this song on a cd he made me for our two year anniversary this past weekend - I became a ball of tears when that song came on. As for a second, John Lennon's "Imagine" - expecially when lifes going bad...

3. Name three songs that turn you on.

Like I Love You by Justin "just Justin" Timberlake, "Both Hands" by Ani DiFranco, and "Dirrrty" by Christina Aguilera - I just love dancing and cuddling to these three

4. Name four songs that always make you feel good.

"Our Lips Are Sealed" by The Go-Gos, "Blinded By The Light" by Manfred Mann???, "Jump Around" by House of Pain (I also received this on my anniversary cd), and anything off the Lord of the Rings soundtracks - the only classical music that has ever really moved me

5. Name five songs you couldn't ever do without

"Mandy" by Barry Manilow, "Luka" by Suzanne Vega, "Good Boy" by Barenaked Ladies, "Imagine" by John Lennon, and any showtune ever recorded expecially "Springtime for Hitler" from the show The Producers - check out your local video store for the movie version - soooo funny!

Peace out homeys!
Word
Grrl Friday

I am officially done exams! I don't even get a full day off until next week, what a bummer is that!?

Played LOTR with J.J. this afternoon, he traded with his brother last night and now owns The Balrog - the most powerful bag-guy card there is in the game, he's practically unstoppable. He won, but we plan on playing at least one more game tommorow night, I'll post who wins. I am a Virgo, and as such I love lists - making them and crossing them out. So, I made an entensive inventory of my cards and which ones I'm using in my current deck, I left the list out on my desk for J.J. to discover - I was laughed at, but I deserved it.

I went to see Anne of Green Gables with my Mom and Jenn tonight. It was awesome - I went to see Cabaret a couple of months ago, but that's more sexual and rocky. Anne was a real "Oklahoma!" type style, really clean and happy, it was a huge change from the shows I've seen in the past few years but I forgot what a great thing these types of musicals are.

Saw Artemis and Sara, the second time I've seen Artemis in as many days - maybe the fates are trying to tell me something - maybe I'll ask her out for a tea soon.

I will be posting on the Bookmobile website as soon as I finish the first book. It should be sometime in the next week so check the site regularly and read along with me!

TTFN

Signed, Grrl Friday

Had a pretty fantastic day today: got my letter to the editor published in the paper (I will post it soon), got a B in my Women & Health class, and played two games of LOTR with J.J. - I beat him once. If I didn't have to work tommorow everything would be almost perfect.........

The Fantastic Friday Five

1. What was the last TV show you watched?

The last tv show I watched was the first thing I turned on this morning in bed - Bosom Buddies with a very young Tom Hanks, hysterical, hysterical, hysterical.....and Tom's mighty cute too.

2. What was the last thing you complained about?

My LOTR card deck - my cards suck at this point and I need to start building a much stronger deck with more men, elves and stronger minions. I am a complete loser, aren't I ?

3. Who was the last person you complimented and what did you say?

Probably J.J. - I was having a conversation with his brother on msn last night and I was telling J.J. about it this afternoon and I told him that he was caring, loving, generous, good-looking and funny.

4. What was the last thing you threw away?

The paper box that held my dinner tonight - frozen vegetable lasgna...yum!

5. What was the last website (besides this one) that you visited?

The Barenaked Ladies Blog they have created it in order to keep in touch with fans while they are recording their new album in California. I love them, and I highly recommend you see them live at least once.

That's all for now, have a good weekend!
Grrl Friday